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Debt Diaries, Step Four: Make inventory of your baggage
One woman’s 12-step path of recovery from debt addiction. Step Four involves making a fearless moral inventory of yourself
What does morality have to do with being unable to pass up a sale at Bed Bath and Beyond?
By the time I really surrendered to this program, I had been compulsively shopping and maxing out credit lines for about 20 years.
Broken down further, what was I really doing? And again, what was the “moral” part of all this?
PREVIOUS STEP: ‘I surrendered my free will to finally control my debt’By going into debt, I was borrowing money without a clear sense of how I would pay it off. That was, at least, very irresponsible. Further, by spending all my money on non-essential items (a trip to Belize to learn snorkelling might have felt like an emergency, but technically…) I was repeatedly plunging myself into financial chaos, and then asking others to bail me out. So I was causing stress and putting unfair pressure on my friends and family, who wanted to help but felt unhappy doing it. That was unkind of me. And finally, I lied constantly about money. How much I was making, how much I owed, when I would pay the phone bill. It was dishonest and cowardly. So…At the very least, I was (sometimes) irresponsible, inconsiderate, dishonest and cowardly. That’s the moral part of all this. In order to get better, I had to put all this down on paper and see it clearly.
NEXT STEP: Admit what got you into this messFor my most recent fourth step, I filled out forty-two pages of paper with neat columns. I had no issue filling page after page with names of people who had wronged and slighted me. How delightful, to have so many clean white pages to fill with all my sensitive slights! I put down the name of a cute guy in my undergrad sociology class who didn’t ask me out on a date after a Halloween party. Parents got a section. I was mad at mother for continuing to bake banana bread when I was trying to lose weight. I was mad at my old therapist for retiring and leaving me all alone to grapple with life. Ex-boyfriends? Of course. I was mad at a grad school boyfriend for dumping me and promptly taking up with a woman who owned a luxury pet hotel. I was furious at Capital One for (a) giving me credit and (b) harassing me when they realized I couldn’t pay them back.
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